A few days ago I did something stupid at work. I got a little angry with someone who didn’t quite understand what I was trying to tell them and I lifted my voice to them (I didn’t yell, just lifted) and became visibly frustrated with them. So the rest of the day I knew I needed to apologize, but I put it off until the next morning. It was awkward (especially since we start so early and it was dark).
I have a hard time apologizing to people. Sometimes I just won’t. I like to think that they know I’m sorry, but what’s probably happening is that I’m just building more and more bitterness towards myself in them. That’s not good. I also like to think that if God is working on me about apologizing to people that he’s probably also working on them about forgiving. He’s probably not. It’s probably just me with the problem that needs fixing.
I need to work of apologizing more. I really should. It really comes back to pride when someone has a hard time apologizing (not for me though, I’m awesome. I don’t have a problem with pride. You do.) and that pride is holding us back from doing good things. And worse, it’s hurting other people.
Everyone overreacts about dumb stuff sometimes, and everyone does stupid stuff. But it’s when we don’t apologize that we really start to mess up. I wish it was easier for me to apologize, but it’s not.
If I owe you an apology, here it is. I apologize. Blanket apologies at the end of a junky blog posts count, right?